Grrr…

Have you ever had your hair pulled so hard the skin beneath it pulled away from your skull? There is a pop, followed by a warm sensation, ending with excruciating pain. Hours later, your head is tender and bruised feeling in the area of the trauma. Now, imagine your whole head feeling like that for days and you have one aspect of what a migraine feels like.

Have you ever had an ear ache? Deep in the recesses of your ear canal it feels like an umbrella is opening slowly and pushing your eardrum into your brain. Every once and while, the umbrella jolts so the steady ache turns to a sharp jab…like a spoke of the umbrella broke away and decided to leave a little blood for its effort. Now you know another part of what a migraine feels like.

How about a tooth ache? A kink in the neck? Nausea? Punched in the eye or nose? A clamp on your brain?

It’s not a pretty thing. I am awake at 3 in the morning because I have wrestled this beast for a full 27 hours and cannot beat it. It has been angry and vicious, never letting up more than a few minutes at a time. I’ve checked my ears but there is no actual blood. It only feels like it. The tears streaming down my cheeks are thick and hot. The splotches of white in my vision are like watching a UFO sighting in the Arizona dessert. It is a bad one that has caused my hand eye coordination to falter a bit and I’ve knocked several things over in the last day. I am naturally clumsy all on my own. Don’t really need any help, migraine, thank you very much.

I am going back in. Sleep, I long for you.

A Rant

If my rants upset you, click away now. They’re better than therapy and chalked full of passion and a little snark. You have been warned.

When I was young, I really thought I was an expert on everything I had ever experienced. Not only that, I thought no one else in the entire history of mankind could have experienced what I did. To an extent, that 2nd one was true. I am Diane and no one in all of history will see everything quite the way I do. I remember not understanding why older people would act upset when I tried to add my vast amounts of knowledge to their inventories. After all, I was sharing, right and people need to know how right I am, right?It made me mad and made me feel like they thought they were better than I was.

Oh, I was such a fool. Continue reading

Going Nude- March 2012

I know I am late, and for that I apologize. Want to know why? I have had to swallow the jagged pill that book selling has made me digest. No doubt, many other writers have had to go through it also, but this is all about me today. I promised to go completely nude and that includes success and defeat. Like my own flesh, it will not always be pretty and more often than not, it will embarrass me. So let’s get to it and then I will tell you my thoughts. Continue reading